Closing out 2025 tonight and am glad to see this year to an end. 2025 pretty much started with a bust, on ice 1-10-25, resulting in a compression fracture to my lower back. First time in my life to experience that, and God willing it was the last. That was followed by some “sputters” and a whole lot of “stretching me”. In hindsight, it was a year of personal and spiritual growth. Growth is uncomfortable at times but ultimately it’s a good thing. In truth, we should aim to grow throughout our lives, always being open for God to do new things in us and through us.
I would have never thought I’d be doing a weekly Wednesday night short devotion for the homeless and low income ministry we serve with. I told my husband Ron on our way home tonight that I feel so inadequate in this role. He said, “That’s why God has you doing it.” In the six months I have been doing this, it’s not gotten any easier. I’m always depending fully on the Lord for guidance in this role. I can’t on my own, but He can and does. I’m humbled and so thankful. God is steadily guiding us towards peace and purpose even when our circumstances seem overwhelming. He is faithful and we can trust Him. He proves that again and again. Reading in front of people is always uncomfortable for me with my low vision. Perhaps it is endearing to show my weakness to others. It’s definitely not the most comfortable situation but if it helps others to “try despite the odds” then maybe it’s worth it. I will keep on until God closes this door.
I believe for 2026, the Lord wants me to “Be still and know that He is God!” While I know this is my heart, sometimes I need to remind myself of this truth. Life can be very stressful and overwhelming at times dealing with hearing and visual limitations. I push myself to do all I can do. Sometimes, I might push myself too hard. I just “dive in” to things and do it, but that can really “test” my limits and wear me out trying. Just being honest. I pray God will give me discernment in the new year to be sensitive to His voice and obedient to all He calls me to do.
Lord, help us to rest in Your peace in the upcoming year as we keep our minds steadily onYou. Help us to be “Still” as You help us chart the path You have for us in 2026. Gives us strength to see ourselves the way You see us, as Your children that You love and fully equip for Your purpose. May we shine for You like never before, in this dark world that needs Your love and hope. We praise and glorify You in advance for all You are and will accomplish this year!!! I am so excited for the journey!!! Lead the way Lord! In Jesus name I pray Amen!!!
Tonight I finished up the devotion at the homeless ministry on “living by faith”. This topic is ingrained in me, as it’s my life each day. I choose to “walk by faith, not by sight”, because I can honestly “see” much more through faith than I can by what I really see. I hope that makes sense. God wants us to take Him at His Word and that is how I try to live life. There is so much to the topic of “living by faith” but I finished up on it tonight. (At least for now, unless God prompts me to speak on it again.)
As I began, I shared Hebrews 11:6, “And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.” (NLT) I explained that while we can’t actually “see” God, He is there. Just like we can’t see air, however when we take a deep breath we see the effects of taking in air, as our chest rises and falls. Just like air, God is there. We can’t see Him, but when we put our faith in Him, we will see the effects of God moving in our lives. Forget human logic, we have to trust God. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”(NLT) Side note, I try to use the New Living Translation when I share because most of the Bible’s we give out are that translation.
As I continued to share, I told them they might be wondering how much faith they needed. I just love how the Bible says faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains. Mustard seeds are tiny. I did look through my pantry to see if I had any, but I must have thrown them out. I did however have a little bit of poppy seeds. I knew they were similar in size. According to Google, mustard seeds are about twice as big as a poppy seed. I brought along some poppy seeds, since that is what I had, and told them the mustard seeds were twice as big, but they are still tiny. Faith that small can move immovable things in our lives. Matthew 17: 20 says, ““You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.”” (NLT)
We each have been given a measure of faith but sometimes we doubt. I will tell you I am so “sure of what I hope for, and certain of what I don’t see” that I can visualize myself with great vision. I can also visualize my son with great vision. Do we have great vision? NO! But I believe! I know, I know, I’m a bit of a “radical” but God says “all things are possible to the one who believes”. However, my “real vision” gets in the way of my faith. When reality hits, demanding I acknowledge we don’t see well, I have to confess, “Lord I believe, help my unbelief”. This is pretty much what happens in Mark 9. A father has brought his child who has an unclean spirit, to Jesus disciples to ask them to cast it out. They couldn’t. The father asked Jesus to help them if He can. “What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.” The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”” Mark 9:22-24 (NLT).
We live in a fallen world where trials, struggles, hurdles and obstacles abound. The best way to get through these things and thrive is having a heart surrendered to God. He is able to do far more than we ask or imagine. I also shared James 1; 3-4 that says, “For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” (NLT) As we face our trials and struggles, when we give it to God, He can develop and refine us to perfection. I know giving it to God is hard, but it sure beat trying in vain to do it in our own strength.
Last Sunday Ron told me to take a picture of the screen at church. (I can’t ever read whats on the screen.) We have been visiting a church that is close to where we live. Ron drives our son Joshua to work on Sundays and this church is right down the road. I will add the picture below but it said “ Sometimes the place that feels like the biggest punishment, God will use to become your biggest platform”. Whoa! That is honestly so true in my life. While I don’t like living with these limitations, not one bit, but….. God is apparently enabling me to glorify Him despite the struggles. Who would have ever thought I’d share my struggles with homeless people? No I can’t quite relate to them in that area but I can relate to struggles and trials that seem like mountains. I can relate to situations that seem like they will never change. I can encourage them to put their faith in God. I told them tonight, “who would have ever thought I’d be doing devotions when I can’t hear and see well, but I’m standing here doing it and thriving.” That’s only because of God. I can honestly say God is good and so so faithful! I don’t understand why we have to deal with some hardships. However, I’m not supposed to understand it, I’m supposed to trust God, which is what I do.
Part of Judah Church’s message last Sunday.
Some rewards are down here on earth, other rewards are in Heaven. I’m banking on Heaven. It’s gonna be good! As Job says in Job 23:10 , “But He knows the way that I take; When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.” (NKJV)
Whatever you are facing, whether it be huge obstacles in your life or trials that seem impossible to overcome, let me encourage you to put your faith in God and let Him move the immovable, break the unbreakable. He can do far more than we can imagine. We just have to trust Him. He’s refining us through difficulties. Let’s not despise the hard situations, but rather let God refine us in those “fires”. “He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver; He will purify the sons of Levi, And purge them as gold and silver, That they may offer to the Lord An offering in righteousness.”Malachi 3:3 (NKJV) I don’t know much about refining silver but from my understanding, the blacksmith keeps the piece in the fire until he sees his reflection. Oh boy…. I’ve got a ways to go, BUT GOD!
Have a great rest of the week everyone. I hope I caught all the typos. I should have been asleep hours ago. Until next time. Be blessed and better yet, be a blessing.
Now don’t get me wrong, this is not the “story of my life”. That would take a long series with hilarity and tears and I’m not going there in this blog. Rather…. Faith itself is the “story of my life”. Everyday I wake up and choose to have faith that God has me and my family in the palm of His hands. No place I’d rather be, than in His hands and His loving arms.
Last week at the homeless outreach in Rock Hill, SC I shared on “living by faith”. On the way there I teared up in the car as my husband Ron was driving down I-77 South. I held those tears back as I didn’t want him to know. It is amazing how God works these devotions in me before I present them to the people. And…. Lord I do want it to be YOU speaking through an empty me and never me just up there speaking”.
Living by faith is not an easy task when you find yourself in circumstances less than appealing. I’ve actually been gaining confidence as I share on Wednesdays, noted by others who have said so. Last Wednesday, they handed me a microphone though and out the door went my confidence. Something about a microphone un-nerves me. Why? Well, honestly I use my hands when I talk. I also have to zoom in to see my notes on my iPad. Let me tell you, when you have to constantly zoom in on an iPad it starts doing a little jiggle and rushes to the bottom of my notes. 😳 God please! Yep, that happens pretty regularly and thus the microphone in my other hand, throws me off. Some of the people said they could hear me better though so I’ll do it. Life is a “learning curve”, each step prepares us for the next.
I began last Wednesday with a question,”Have you ever prayed hard and it seemed like God doesn’t answer?” I shared with them that I have, in fact kind of regularly. Sometimes we pray about something so much we lose sight of who we are praying to – God almighty, our creator and sustainer, the One who knows whats best for us.
The Bible is full of “great people” that God used for His glory. If you study the scriptures you will find that often what made them “great” was the trials and struggles they endured and came out the other side glorifying God. Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (NKJV) Ok Lord, you know I don’t “see” a lot of things but I’m trusting you in this “daily grind” and the long run. A little further in that chapter of Hebrews we see the following verse: “These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth.” (NKJV) That is so true! When we surrender to Jesus, Heaven is our home. We are just passing through down here on earth. It’s kind of a hard truth when you live a constant trial, BUT GOD! I say that because, His power is made perfect in our weaknesses when we give it over to Him.
Let me mention the last two verses of this chapter; “And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.” Hebrews 11:39-40 (NKJV) So they did not receive the promise but saw it from afar and God had something better for them. It boils down to trusting God. I look at it this way, God is my Heavenly Father and He knows whats best. I had an amazing earthly father and I sure do miss him. He always listened when I needed to talk. He loved me and my brother and gave us wise counsel. How much more will my Heavenly Father do these things plus more. He sees the “whole picture” of our lives.
No I don’t understand why I have to live with hearing and vision issues. I don’t understand why I have to depend on others to get places because I can’t see well enough to drive. I really don’t understand why our son has to have my similar limitations. Lord it’s just a hard hard thing to witness. I don’t understand why the majority of people don’t care. They are too busy with their own lives I suppose. I can relate to the homeless people in a sense. The majority of people don’t care but God does. He has me stand before them each Wednesday and testify of the loving, all powerful God He is. We just keep on keeping on. I will smile and trust God has us and won’t ever forsake us.
This Wednesday, God willing, I’m going to continue with the subject on living by faith. I’m going to check our pantry, as I think I have some mustard seeds in there. I got mustard seeds thinking they were ground mustard, God knew I’d need them one day. I’m going to find that container and show the people how small amount of faith we need. A mustard seed is tiny. Pray God gives me the words to share, the words that will reach their hearts and encourage them to put their hope in Jesus.
That’s all for now. Maybe I will follow up after this Wednesday’s ministry. Where ever you are in life, have faith in God! He watches over us so carefully and tenderly when we are under trial and temptation. Let me encourage you with one last verse. “But he knows the way that I take; when he has tried me, I shall come out as gold.” Job 23:10 (ESV)
Today was a different kind of day at the beach. Everyday this week we have gone to the beach and just sat for hours talking, feeding seagulls and soaking up the sun. Today Leasa and I took the kayaks out in the canal. We looked at the tide chart trying to decide the best time to go. Paddling against the tide can be very tiring so we wanted to choose wisely the timing of going. High tide is the easiest time to go but high tide was around 6:00 pm which was a little bit late. We decided to try between low and high tide.
This was my first kayaking outing this year. However I didn’t bring the old cochlear implant processor I use for water activities so I heard nothing while we were out on the water today. I prefer to be able to hear boats and even yelling if my friend is trying to get my attention. She did try to get my attention but I didn’t notice. I told her to stick her paddle up in the air if she wanted to tell me something and I would paddle towards where she was. I can’t see real far but I can a paddle sticking up in the air. We were against the tide half of our course which was a bit tiring. I told her we could turn around if she wanted, but we decided to go for it and reach the turning point. The way back was much easier. At one point she was ahead of me going through the tall grasses in the marsh. I saw the rope from the back of her kayak in the water and grabbed it, slightly hindering her progress. 😂 I was cracking up paddling behind her. It was so much fun.
Our half way point with the ocean in the distance.
Returning to the house, we met up with our other friend Lisa Jane and went on a coastal nature hike. That was very interesting and beautiful. There were signs telling the wildlife in the area and the history. Once again we had to be aware of the tide. A couple was finishing as we were starting off and they warned us to stay on the right trail. The tide waters had covered the left trail. We saw on foot how far we had kayaked, since we walked to the point where we had turned the kayaks back towards the house. It seemed longer on foot than on water. When we were returning on our nature hike, the tide had come in some more and we walked a short portion in a puddle. It was a fun way to see the nature in the area, both by water and on foot.
One of the nature trail signs explaining the moons influence on the tides. A picture from the nature trail.Leasa, Lisa and me at the end of the nature trail and the point where we turned the kayaks around on the water.
Tomorrow we will have a regular beach day, sitting by the ocean and soaking up the sun. This has truly been such a relaxing trip and I’m very thankful for the opportunity to just relax with friends and enjoy nature from a coastal perspective. There are all the “attractions” of the beach with shops, shows and museums but taking time to enjoy the natural side of the coast is refreshing.
Today marks a significant day! It was my brother Forrest’s “Bone Marrow Birthday”. Today marks five year since his bone marrow transplant back in August 2020. All Glory to God! Such a miracle and the family is so thankful. Today as he and his wife went to Duke for his appointment, everything turned out great. From what I understand, Duke no longer has a bell to ring so when they left Duke, they drove to Charlotte and rang the bell there. Forrest sent me this picture and I love the inscription beside the bell.
I remember clearly sitting on the porch praying for him back in 2020 when they found out he would need a bone marrow transplant. I am so thankful God enabled me to play a small role in his miracle by being a “perfect match”. Thank you Jesus for the many miracles that have happened along this journey Forrest and his family endured. It was a hard journey for them but to see all the blessings God has bestowed on them makes it a beautiful masterpiece of God’s handiwork to behold. Indeed, Miracles do happen!
I wore the “Miracles Happen” bracelet until it wore out.
Many of you have followed my blog from the beginning. Every year on Forrest “Bone Marrow Birthday” I have asked permission to share the joys of another year. This year is no different. We give all praise and glory to God for all He has done! We stand amazed and humbled at His grace and mercy. Thank you Jesus! And thank you all for your prayers along the way.
If you or your loved ones are facing a hard, seemingly impossible situation, let me encourage you to pray and trust God for His best. I love the follow scripture. “Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21 (ESV)
Here’s a little “peek” into my world. As an observer of human nature I find it interesting to watch people having conversations. The back and forth flow of words, smiles and laughter. It intrigues me and makes me slightly jealous at peoples skills in the “art”. Yes I call it an “art”. Today I watched the back and forth on a FaceTime. I am training to learn how to really share the phototherapy technology I’ve been using and love. I would never promote something unless I honestly believe it works and I do. So here I am going way beyond myself with watching zoom meetings and imitating FaceTime calls. If you told me I’d be doing this I would have laughed out loud. But I will let you all laugh along with me asI learn: trail and error.
Now back to conversing. From my perspective on today’s zoom I felt a bit like I was in a tennis match of sorts. A Volley back and forth of information and questions. Spoken language is so very different than sign language but I never want to limit myself to one type of dialogue. In all honestly, I prefer text or written language. The backspace is awesome! Yes, I’m over here laughing at that little joke. As I more watched today’s FaceTime than participated, honestly I have to zoom in to see the faces well and the lighting doesn’t always help. So many factors when it comes to Total communication: putting what I hear and what I see together and trust me, I am missing some gaps here and there. Very thankful for a patient caring friend who knows what she’s doing and can sign as well. I am learning a lot and thankful for the journey and stretching of myself.
This afternoon was another type of conversing at a baby shower for a friends daughter. There were both deaf, hearing impaired and hearing people there so lots of different types of conversation going on. It’s interesting because deaf people can converse in a loud group from across the room. I suppose people who talk loud can too. Just an observation. I on the other hand have to be fairly close to do either; understand speech or read signs and I’m always missing something. However, written language I can understand and retain.
Just a little reflection tonight as I think back on today. Honestly all I can do is try my best and let the pieces fall where they will. My gifts are encouraging and prayer. I’m the kind of person that meets you where you are, not expecting anything but just wanting to give hope to keep moving forward. We are all different with such a variety of talents and skills. Let’s encourage each other to be the very best version of who we are and strive to keeps stretching ourselves to learn new things. One day, God willing, I will master the “art” of conversing. I do fairly well one on one, but add more people and I’m lost in the “volley” of words, signs and faces. Just being real. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of their weekend. Be blessed and better yet, Be a Blessing.
Me doing devotions a few weeks ago at our RiceNBeans location in Rock Hill. Photo credit Terry P.
Have you ever been given an opportunity that you never thought you’d do? Un-nerving opportunities that you can’t do on your own? That’s been me. The RiceNBeans location that I serve at had to change locations for unforeseeable reasons. In the Rock Hill location we are now serving inside where there is a large kitchen. The people can come in and get cooled off in the air conditioned meeting area and have ice water and a meal. At this new location we also get to do a short devotion with the people. It’s a chance for “spiritual food” along with a warm meal. Pastor Daryl asked me if I would lead the devotions. I didn’t realize he meant every week. I honestly texted him recently to let him know I was thinking about stopping with volunteering. Let me explain a bit. Before we were meeting at a bust stop and I was busy doing “hands on” things that didn’t require me to hear people. The cooking and passing out food was easy for me.
In our new location it is a new dynamic where we let our wonderful volunteers to really get involved so they are busy and enjoy their experience. I’m not gifted with “directing” people so I felt like it wasn’t a good fit. I was asked to do the devotions and that is something I can do, with a lot of direction and help from the Lord. The thing about doing the devotions; I can’t see well enough to see the peoples response, I can’t tell if I’m speaking loud enough in the large room, I have a hard time seeing what I’ve prepared and have to zoom in large on my iPad. Bottom line…. it is un-nerving. With all these things, the devil had a good time of making me question if I was reaching the people and if I made any sense at all. A few weeks ago I asked Pastor Daryl if we could give out Bibles and that night we gave them all out except for one. Another night I felt so uncomfortable when the Lord prompted me to tell the people I’d be glad to pray with them if they wanted to accept Jesus. I was obedient and did what the Lord asked but not a single person approached me for prayer but one lady gave me a hug. In a sense I kind of felt like Jonah, wanting to run far away from this challenge but I didn’t. Every time I have spoken the Lord has given me the scripture to share.
Earlier today I did not know they wanted me to do devotions today but when I found out, scripture immediately came to me. I spoke briefly on our “thought life”. Our minds are bombarded with all kinds of thoughts all the times, but we don’t have to let them make a “nest” in our heads. I shared with the the following scripture. “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” Philippians 4:8 (ESV). I looked at a cross reference and saw the New Living Translation says to “fix your thoughts”. We have a choice in what we allow to stay in our minds. Choose what is lovely, pure, just, commendable, praise worthy etc. I also shared 2 Corinathians 10:5 with them that says, “We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,”. 2 Corinthians 10:5 (ESV) We have authority to take our wayward thoughts captive. I always try to throw in a true story or two to demonstrate the point. Tonight I shared about when we went to a little place within the campground at the beach last week to get some hamburgers for lunch. We ordered then sat at a picnic table to eat. The cashier was a “ray of sunshine”. She was so sweet and friendly and that set the stage for the experience. The food was NOT good. The hamburgers were cold as if they had been cookened then put in a refrigerator. However the lettuce was crisp and the tomatoe was also good. I laughed and told Ron the lettuce and tomatoe were the best part. It’s all a matter of perspective. Choose to find the good in things and it helps things go better.
Not sure what God is preparing me for, but I’m thankful for His grace, strength and wisdom to know when the devil is trying to make me “throw in the towel”. Not a chance. I’m going to keep serving as long as the Lord keeps this door open. It’s stretching me but He’s growing me for something and I’m honored and humble to be along for the journey. Don’t give up! Don’t quit. Be strong and courageous. God is with us wherever we go. Be blessed and better yet, Be a Blessing! Good night!
It’s a “no frills” kind of day, with my messy gray curls but I circled my patch so you can spot it.
All silliness aside, I’m four and a half months in with using phototherapy stem cell technology patches and I continue to love the benefits. So why do I patch? In all honestly I was a true skeptic at the end of March when my college friend shared the technology with me. I do trust her though and see the amazing results she’s receiving so I was willing to look more closely. I have read so many incredible testimonies of how these patches have changed peoples lives for the better. The testimonies of real people sharing their real life situations has given me great hope.
I believe God made our body to heal itself. God created our stem cells which are the “master cells” and building blocks in our body. By God’s design, stem cells are found throughout our body and in various organs. Their job is to repair and renew our bodies. Stem cells migrate through the bloodstream to areas of the body most in need of repair and renewal. God is so amazing!
The stem cell patch traps the infrared light emitted from our body and reflects it back into the body. The reflected light stimulates the activation of stem cells. People have experienced notable effects in the first 24 hours and have incredible results in the first year. The stem cell patch supports the activation of healthy stem cells by activating GHK-cu (copper peptides) These copper peptides reset over 4,000 genes to a healthier younger state. By the age of 30 only half of our stem cells are working. By age 60, 90% are dormant. Can you tell I love the science behind this? Biology and anatomy were two of my favorite classes many years ago in college.
While the stem cell patches do not “treat” any specific disease. They activate stem cells and your body uses it where renewal is most needed. However, many people share they have benefitted with less pain, reduced inflammation, better quality of sleep, increased energy, less brain frog and less depression and anxiety. I personally can testify that my depression is way better and I feel so much more balanced. I am very thankful my friend shared this with me.
Yesterday my friend shared about the patching conference she just attended and shared a video from the conference of David Schmidt, the inventor sharing part of his testimony. I had some trouble following the video with my hearing and vision issues. Another friend shared with me about “live captioning” in settings on apple devices and told me how to turn it on. I still had some issues since I can’t read as fast as people speak but she shared. the gist of what he said. He diligently studies the Bible, doing word study, comparing meaning between Greek, Hebrew and numerical meaning. He gives God full credit for his inventions. That was confirmation that I’m on the right path.
Hebrews 11:1 says, “Faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see.” (NLT) Faith is active. Another compelling verse is found in James 2. “You see, his faith and his actions worked together. His actions made his faith complete.” James 2:22 (NLT). Jesus himself used some unconventional ways of getting things down. For example, in John 9 Jesus heals a man born blind by spitting on the ground, making mud and placing it on his eyes. He told the man to go and wash in the pool of Siloam and came back seeing. So I’m going to continue patching.
This stem cell patch technology is patented with clinically studies and proven results. It is nontransdermal and noninvasive. While I started in April hoping it will help with my low vision, I am seeing other benefits while I wait: better quality of sleep, more mentally balanced, increased energy, handling stress much better, just to name a few. I’m going to keep praying and see what the Lord allows. He created my body to renew itself. Now where the activated stem cells will end up working is up to the Lord but I trust Him.
I will be having an “Educational Patch Party” in the near future, if you would like to learn more. My friend Kellie and another lady will be presenting the information. If you’d like an invitation to the zoom party, let me know and I’d be happy to send you an invitation.
We can’t grasp the goodness of God. “For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9 (NLT) AND…… “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” Ephesians 3:20 (NLT)
So keep believing, keep trusting, keep putting your faith into action because God is working. I’m personally thankful He is using this stem cell patch technology to renew me. Be Blessed and better yet, Be a Blessing!
Happy Blogging Anniversary to me! Wow four years have flown by and many posts have been shared on a range of topics. Every week God gives me something to share and I’m so thankful for this journey He has me on and mostly that He is with me every step of the way. I just reread my very first blog post written exactly four years ago. My goal was and still is to encourage everyone to “Bloom where you’re planted”. We can’t always choose where we end up in life but we can choose how we deal with it. We can choose to Bloom for the Glory of God! We can choose to Rise Up in the power He gives us. God is so incredibly faithful.
While I have no clue exactly how many posts I’ve written: I usually average 1-2 posts per week for the last 4 years. WordPress is worldwide so posts can potentially be read anywhere in the world. Here are a few stats from my blogging journey. I am humbled and overjoyed that God would allow me to speak life over such an incredible audience. There have been a total of 10,516 views in 136 countries during this journey. Praise God for His faithfulness. While I do not make money doing this, I look at it in terms of speaking life and encouragement. My treasures are in Heaven and I’m just being obedient to share what comes to my heart. You are welcome along on this journey by subscribing. That way the blogs come directly to your e mail. I don’t know how long this journey will last but I will continue to be faithful in the process. Please feel free to share and brighten the world around us. Be blessed and better yet, Be a Blessing! Www.shannonkhinson.com
I love this quote. It is actually “so me” BUT in my life there is a fine-line. Finding balance is key.
I am forever trying to figure out the fine-line of pushing. How about you? I can push myself too hard on the day to day basis and am always trying to find the right balance. When push comes to shove, it’s too far and the end result is exhaustion. (More mentally than physically). I went over and beyond this week and I was literally about to fall over last night when I got home from serving. I wanted to go right to bed and it was not even dark outside. I made myself wait until 10 then went to sleep and slept 11 hours. Feeling much better today. Once again I’m on a quest to get it done around the house.
Living with hearing and visual limitations, it takes more brain energy to deal with the normal things like conversing with people for a length of time, both spoken and sign language. (They are equally tiring but I love my people and push myself anyway) The same thing can be said about pushing past limitations. On Tuesday I overdid the zoom meetings attempt. I mean honestly, I was literally trying in vain to understand a live zoom. Someone was texting me some pointers of what they were basically talking about. I was using my iPad for the zoom meeting itself and texts coming in on the same device. I grabbed the iPhone which is synced to the iPad to answer the texts. Here’s the catcher, I can’t see the iPhone unless it’s under my video magnifier. Lord have mercy….. but I tried to keep a straight face and not show frustration. I’ve got to find the right balance in this. Life can stretch me so much at times, I wonder what it’s like for normal people. But hey….. I know normal is overrated.
Finding balance in the new business venture is something I’m going to have to do. I realize I can’t do it all so I’m going to need to learn to say no to some things. The phototherapy stem call technology is such an effective and fascinating product to learn and promote. I’m realizing I’ve got so much more of Life on my plate than others can even begin to understand, and knowing that, I’ve got to figure out a balanced approach.
Yesterday was ministry day when I help feed the homeless in Rock Hill. Since we have moved to an indoor facility we can now do a short devotion with the people before they eat. Pastor Daryl asked me to share with the people last night and that was such a privilege to share God’s Word with them. Nerve-wracking as well. While a women a couple of weeks ago told me it’s not hard, I personally feel a weight of responsibility that I don’t take lightly. Two days ago, God dropped some verses in my heart before Daryl even texted me. I knew in my heart what to share, but I still had to stand up there and do it. I wanted to mentally and spiritually prep myself right before standing in front of the people but I was busy in the kitchen washing the pots, pans and bowls we used during food prep. This is an industrial sized kitchen. God worked it all out though. I realize it’s Him working through me, and not me myself. I think it went pretty well. I’m going to ask someone for feedback later, who was out there with me, as they have asked me to do it again next week.
Looking back and at the present, I do see all this stretching might be leading up to something. What? I do not know. Over a year ago I was leading Bible study in our deaf group, when I couldn’t see the book. I sat down at my video magnifier that I use for reading a book and took detailed notes on my iPad using symbols to help me remember, memorizing great portions of it to be able to best teach. It took a lot out of me, but it was worth it to see growth. Next I began to weekly volunteer with RiceNBeans ministry. I can’t hear the people well but I didn’t let that stop me from serving. Now here I am still involved in that, in a new location helping with devotions. Also presently learning the Patching business and possibly pushing myself a bit too much in that area. It seems to all lead to something, which I’m not yet sure what that something is.
I believe my audiologist would be shocked at how much I’m putting myself out there to force myself to understand as much as possible. If I could give advice to myself, I’d say “Pray for a more balanced approach”. I can and do overdo it. I know when I’m so tired I want to go to sleep at 7:30 then I’ve pushed a bit too far. I guess my “Kenley stubbornness” comes into play quite a bit. Lord help me find that fine-line and stop there. I know other deaf people (just deaf, no vision issues) who only interact with deaf people. I’m not one of those. I love all people; hearing, deaf, disabled, foreign, black, white, type A personality, type B, outgoing, not so much, etc People are God’s workmanship and are there to love and encourage. That’s just who I am. I am so so thankful to have time with God daily to soak up strength and direction for the day. It’s my Lifeline. Do you know Jesus? He can be your Lifeline too.
I better get back to work. This is my second cleaning day. Got half of it done two days ago and finishing up today. Have a blessed day.
