@eccentric – rootedbythewater.blog

This morning I woke up smiling with a song playing in my heart. I love when that happens. “God is healing someone,making a way for someone, God is up to something right now.” I wasn’t sure the lyrics in my heart were the right lyrics so I looked it up. I wasn’t too far off. I got on our church website to check the music from this past Sunday. You can check it out for yourself at http://www.centralnc.org The lyrics were “He is healing someone, He is saving someone, God is doing something right now.” I’m not sure the name of the song.

I love when the Lord ministers to my heart through music. It’s also kind of amusing because being hearing and visually limited, I get parts of it then make it my own version. I know I’m an “Oddball” but that’s okay. There is nothing wrong with being your unique individual self.

Yesterday a friend and I met for our first week of Bible study. She lives a few houses down from me, so I walked down for our first study together. We are doing Kay Arthur’s Bible study, Lord I Want yo Know You I’ve done the study before on my own but I thought it would be good to do it with a friend. There is nothing as refreshing as studying Gods Word. Hebrews‬ ‭4:12‬ says, “For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.” (NLT).

This particular Kay Arthur study we are doing is a study of the names of God in the Bible. God reveals His character and attributes about Himself with each name we study.

Yesterday we discussed Elohim, God our Creator. We talked about the purpose for our existence. According to God’s Word, we were created for His glory. See Isaiah‬ ‭43:7‬, “Bring all who claim me as their God, for I have made them for my glory. It was I who created them.’”(NLT‬‬).

One of the beautiful things about doing a Bible study with someone is the opportunity to share. I was open as I shared my frustrations of my hearing and visual issues. In all honesty I told my friend I didn’t think I would be the person I am today if God had not allowed me to be “broken”. God has brought me to a place where I must rely on Him rather than myself. I shared with her about a devotion I came across last week about Gideon. (Judges 7) In a nutshell, God had to reduce Gideon’s men so only God would get the glory in the victory. God reduced Gideon’s men to 300. That’s a fraction from what he started with. They each had a horn and a torch in earthen vessels (clay jars). The 300 broke into groups of three. When the horn sounded they broke their earthen vessel and the light shined through.

Sometimes God has to bring us to brokenness so His light shines through. A place where we can’t rely on our own strengths but have to fully rely on Him. It’s a hard place to be but He surely brings victory and is glorified.

There are treasures found in brokenness. It is when we can’t do it that God pouts His strength into us to enable us to shine on for His glory.

It would be so easy to sink in despair and stay in my comfort zone. A place where I’m not worried about what I can’t or can’t see, can or can’t understand. A side note, I see some of the signs but can’t always see the right hand shape with sign language, so I miss parts of what I should be seeing. When talking and listening to conversations, I understand parts of it with my cochlear implant processor but I also miss many parts. I know in my heart, God did not create me to live in my “comfort zone” where I’m not challenged and used. I was created to bring glory to Him, my Elohim, my Creator. As I soak in Gods Word, He restores me and enables me to rise up again. He is our victory. And just like that song I woke up to that was playing in my heart….“He is healing someone, He is saving someone, He is doing something…right now”! Be Blessed.

Check out my autobiography “Rooted by the Water” for more of my story. Find it on Amazon and other online retailers.

Pictures used in this blog were found on Pinterest.
‭‭

Have you ever felt like an oddball? Maybe eccentric would be a better word since it means unconventional and slightly strange. I’m laughing as I type this because that does sound perfectly like me.

The average person who sees me most likely won’t notice anything unusual but if you take the time to talk with me you will notice some differences. I do not see or hear and comprehend speech in the way most people do. That would also include visually and hearing impaired people. I am just quite unique in an oddball way. I will own it since it’s unescapable.

Sometimes the differences stand out more to me than other times. Last week a friend and I went on a long walk at a paved trail along the Catawba River. Even with my low vision it was soothing, and peaceful with lush green everywhere. They had apparently opened the damn because the water was rushing and it was such a delightful sound. My friend asked if I could see the white caps of the rushing water and I couldn’t from the paved trail but as we got closer to the water I could see it. She also pointed out a cardinal In a nearby tree, but I couldn’t see that. It was not far from us but as we walked a bit closer it flew away. As we continued to walk, we came upon some signs explaining the history of the area. I could read the signs if I was very close to them. Out of curiosity I asked my friend how far away from the sign she could stand and read it. Wow! She could read it from a nice distance. If you have the gift of good vision, get out and appreciate all that nature offers. Seeing animals in nature would be so amazing, especially deer. A couple of months ago my husband saw a hawk perched on our small garden flag post. He pointed it out to me but it was hard for me to really see it so we snuck up as close as we could and took a picture so I could zoom in to see the details. It was huge and beautiful. He has also taken pictures of rabbits in our yard that I would zoom in to observe. They were adorable. We haven’t seen those in a while which might be due to the hawks visit.

There are also some marked differences in how I experience social situations. I understand parts of conversations but only parts and its rarely consistent. It is the oddest and most frustrating thing but it’s no one’s fault. All I can do is do my part and try, and that’s what I do. With my cochlear implant I can understand some speech. My rate of success varies for many reasons including but not limited to, background noise and if the sound bounces off walls. …etc. Sometime my husband will get frustrated and say, “That thing doesn’t work!”, meaning my cochlear implant processor. I usually respond by saying, “ Really? Let me take it off and we will see exactly how well it works!“. This is always amusing because without it I can’t understand any speech. God bless him for his patience.

Another difference is how I grocery shop or just shop in general. I memorize color schemes on packaging so it helps me find products I’m familiar with. My iPad is also close by when I need to take a picture and zoom so I can see whatever it is.

Watching me try to navigate what life throws is probably comical to watch. I actually laugh at myself quite often, I’m over being concerned about what people think. Being an oddball can be depressing at times. Often times I feel left out but Im still in the situation and have to figure out how to handle things with grace. I’ve learned to smile and let it go. Everyday is a new adventure with new opportunities to allow God to strengthen me in my weaknesses. Im so grateful for the people God has put in my life to support, love and laugh with me. Let’s keep on keeping on.

Check out my autobiography “Rooted by the Water” available online at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Books a Million, Target, Walmart and Park Road Books. My story of learning to live triumphantly despite disabilities, through Gods strength and lessons He has taught me along the way. Be inspired!

Tag: @eccentric

The Treasure of Brokenness

Oddball