I don’t know about you, but the fact that “God knows ” brings so much comfort and reassurance to my heart in uncertain times. I saw this picture today on social media and had to take a screen shot because it was so SPOT ON….TRUE! There are times when you begin praying, just like this picture, “Dear God……then all the jumbled up frustrations come out and you end with ….amen”. We all have these moments, time and time again. We can rest assured that God knows. There is absolutely nothing that takes him by surprise. El Roi is one of the names of God. It means the God who sees. He sees it all. He knows what I’m going to say before a word is even on my tongue. He knows it fully. (Psalms 139:4) That’s so hard to understand. I’m so thankful that I’m not required to understand. He ask me to trust him fully.
Lately I’ve had some of those days when I pray “Lord help me please. I’m so frustrated. I can only laugh at these things so many times before I’ve had enough”. Today was one of those days. I attended a bridal shower for a sweet beautiful girl we watched grow up. I wanted to go to honor her even though I was out of my comfort zone It’s kind of funny the things I do to ge through these awkward situations due to hearing and visual issues. As I sat there while many others talked a song began to flow through my mind. “Jesus is in this room.. here right now, here right now…. making this place I stand…. holy ground, holy ground”. I kid you not! This song was going through my mind and I just had to chuckle a bit. I smiled, I endured then I sent my husband Ron a text saying “SOS. I’m ready to go. Can you come get me?” 😂 Sure enough he did. He stopped what he was doing and drove thirty minute to pick me up. When I got in the car I said, “I owe you” , but all he wanted was a kiss.
I know everyone deals with life frustrations and uncertainties. There is a war being fought on the other side of the world right now. Innocent people are caught in the middle. God protect them and bring peace.
At the end of the day we can rest in the knowledge that He knows. He sees. He is in control. Tomorrow will be a new day. Another opportunity to surrender to God and let him fight our battles.
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This week I have been focusing on John 15. I especially love the English Standard Version of this chapter. Jesus tells us to abide in him. He uses the example of how a branch must abide in the vine to bear fruit. We also must abide in Jesus and he in us, so we can bear fruit for his glory.
So what does it mean to abide? The Webster’s Dictionary defines abide as remain, last, reside or endure. Jesus tells us to abide in him, meaning to remain in him. Just like a branch can not bear fruit without remaining in the vine, we also can’t bear fruit unless we remain in Christ.
Every single day we are faced with decisions in how we are going to deal with life. We can wake up and choose Jesus. Choose to be obedient to all he desires for us. Some days are more of a struggle with our fleshly desires. We get frustrated with situations, feelings, opinions, disappointments and the list goes on. So what do we do? Do we choose to abide in Christ or do we choose our own way? I’ve learned from experience that when I choose my own way my joy and peace are lacking.
As I prayed this morning I found myself asking the Holy Spirit to check my heart. God knows what I’m going to say before it comes out of my mouth. Sometimes I feel a check in my heart telling me “Don’t say that” or “Don’t do that”. It’s wise to choose obedience. I’m not saying it’s easy! God knows the struggle is real but he doesn’t leave us on our own to deal with things. God has given us the Holy Spirit and Im so thankful. I can’t make it through a day without leaning on the Lord.
Apart from abiding in Christ, we can’t bear fruit. Galatians 5 tells us that the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. As we abide in Christ these fruits will be evident in our lives.
Living with hearing and visual issues, I need patience, peace, joy and self control not to react in a sassy manner. Oh I can be sassy! I have found that when I choose to abide; choose prayer, times of worship and reading scriptures, when I choose obedience to what God desires, I am more likely to respond to life struggles in a more God honoring way. As we continue in 2022 my prayer is that we will abide in Christ……remain in him… flourish in our spiritual growth.. bloom and bear much fruit for the glory of God.
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A couple of days ago I went on a ladies retreat with the Central Church Ladies Ministry to The Billy Graham Training Center at The Cove in Asheville NC. It was truly an incredible experience and to think I almost backed out of going.
The beautiful Chapel.
When I first signed up to attend, three of my deaf friends were also going. We had planned to room together. As the retreat got closer all three of my friends had to back out for various reasons. I still wanted to go but I was reluctant since I didn’t know anyone well.
With my hearing and visual issues, being in an unfamiliar place with people I didn’t know well and also not knowing what to expect had me way out of my comfort zone. I talked it over with a friend and she encouraged me to go. She said being out of my comfort zone gave God more opportunity to stretch me. She was right.
Peaceful view from the Training Center deck.
Although I was still not comfortable with going, I actually asked the Lord to help me get through it as I boarded the bus. Let me explain just a little bit. Having my visual problem ( I am legally blind although I don’t think of myself that way. Labels are confining. I don’t need a white cane and I don’t have a seeing eye dog but my vision is still NOT good at all). Add to that being deaf and hearing with a cochlear implant … with a processor that is currently not working right. Oh my goodness! So I asked the Lord to get me through the retreat and boy did He ever! It was beyond anything I could have anticipated. I think I’m going to break into a song “ Let me tell ya about my Jesus” Oops! I got off track there but it’s true. Let me tell you!
One of my favorite verses was on the wall in the Upper Prayer Room.
Even though I could not see the peoples name tags. Well I could see them but not read them, everyone was so welcoming and so so sweet. Two deaf ladies signed up to come and they were helpful and so much fun. One interpreter ( Lauren ) from church who has become a sweet friend, insisted on helping me. She sat beside me to make sure I understood. My heart swells with gratitude. My roommate Barbara who is also deaf, was such a joy. She helped me see where things were in the dining room, telling me the foods at the buffet. I really enjoyed getting to know her.
Me and my roommate Barbara.
The sessions were encouraging and testimonies shared were beautiful. Lauren and Barbara were my trail buddies walking to the chapel. I thought the trails were all paved but not the one we took. It was gravel and leaves covered a small part of it. They made sure I didn’t trip on the rocks, roots and uneven ground. We stopped at each scripture post and one of them would sign what it said. Barbara wanted to find the little mountain creek and listen to the soothing sounds of the water. (She can hear that with her hearing aids). We got to the chapel and let me tell you….that place is gorgeous! In the upper prayer room we knelt down to pray. It was a beautiful experience.
Trail buddies ~ Barbara, me and Lauren.
Friday evening at dinner a couple we had not met sat down where we were sitting. The lady knew some sign language so we wondered if she was hearing impaired. It turns out it was Charity Gayle and her husband Ryan Kennedy. They were there to lead us in an unforgettable night of worship. While I had never heard of them before ( I don’t know many music artist by name) I was familiar with some of the songs they have written. They were so down to earth and humble. They led us in an AMAZING time of worship. It was not like a performance but rather an invitation to join them in worshipping Jesus. It was simply beautiful.
Our table group with Ryan Kennedy and Charity Gayle. (bottom left)
At our final session Catherine, the ladies ministry director, taught on Exodus 17 when Aaron and Hur held up Moses hands when he got weary, as Joshua fought the Amalekkies. We need to support others going through hard things and when they are weary. As I think back over the retreat, that’s what Barbara and Lauren did. They supported me through being way out of my comfort zone. I went unsure but came home refreshed.
Listening to the little mountain creek.
Don’t ne afraid to walk through doors of opportunity God opens. When He opens a door, He will walk you through it, giving you the resources you need and you will come away so refreshed and grateful for the lessons learned. Grateful for His goodness! I’m changed. So thankful!
One last funny note. My husband Ron picked me up when the bus arrived back to the church. We stopped at a little Chinese restaurant for lunch. My heart was full and as we were sitting at the table waiting for our food I softly started singing. Ron said, “What are you singing?” I said “Can you hear me? I didn’t realize I was singing out loud”. I was singing one of Charity Gayles songs “What your mercy did for me”. I came home from the retreat and started looking her up on iTunes. I purchased two of her albums and started looking up lyrics so I can sing along.
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Happy Friday! I wasn’t intending to blog today but I absolutely LOVE when I wake up with a worship song on my heart and my lips singing forth as I rise from bed. ( thankfully no one was here to witness it except our dog Joy. She doesn’t care that I can’t sing. I didn’t have my Nadia cochlear implant processor on yet so I couldn’t hear myself sing 🤣). I was belting out, “God said he would be right there… my God is everywhere. God said it, I believe it…. God said it, I believe it…. I’m going to take him at his word)
Our dog Joy under the bed.
There’s nothing like rising in the morning singing out loud. My day is Made! Thank you Jesus for the Joy that comes in the morning! Thank you for your Faithfulness! Thank you for the doors you will open for Your glory!